God is Great and Awesome
So the reason most of you are going to be reading this is because Andrea and I are no longer in a relationship. This post is going to be very difficult for a lot of people to understand and I don’t expect it to answer all questions but I hope it helps. I want to make a key note that God is GREAT and that he receives all glory for what has happened and is to come.
I will begin by saying I was praying yesterday that God would do something exciting with Andrea and I’s relationship.
We had a talk this morning in our intern group about relationships and what a true God honoring relationship looks like. Without going into incredible detail I became incredibly convicted; I had to leave and go pray for awhile because I realized what a truly God honoring relationship looks like, and that I was failing at it. I thought about it and wrestled with and decided we shouldn’t separate. So obviously after we have a relationship talk you should probably go and talk with your special someone about what you discussed and evaluate yourselves. I started by saying “I have no intention of breaking up with you” God’s will is unstoppable… We talked through everything and realized that our relationship was unhealthy for a God honoring marriage. Speaking of marriage (which is the end goal of dating) we realized that “Oh crap, there is no way we are even close to ready to be married!” and staying within a holding pattern till you get married isn’t healthy and hinders spiritual growth so much. After talking for awhile we began to realize that we weren’t even sad, to a point we were joyful. We realized how much of an opportunity this is to grow! And maybe 4 or 5 years if we come back and God decides we’re mature enough and that we should be together, then awesome! But at the same time if He decides that we should be with someone else, then awesome! You have to realize that this is totally a God thing and anything I could have done would have ended in heartbreak and pain. Is it sad? Yes, but I don’t feel like this last year was a waste and I don’t regret it. I just wish I had known how a Godly relationship needs to look like 5 years ago. The main thing is we are trusting God in his will and that this can only benefit both of us.
I am sorry if this didn’t answer everything or if you just don’t understand. I don’t expect everyone to, because this is complete trust in God that many people just can’t comprehend. If you’re mad at me or her you’re wasting your time, we are excited to what opportunities this will bring forward. As always if you’d like to chat more sometime I’d be glad!
Ironically this is what I’ve been working on for memorization…
(love) Does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the Truth
1 Corinthians 13:6
We are rejoicing in the Truth of the word that is the Bible, the only way this worked out the way it did is because we obeyed the Truth. I cannot say it any other way
Drew